I Hate Waiting - 9.23.10

This has been the longest 2 weeks of my life!!! I'm so anxious about our OB appointment tomorrow and I just want it to be Friday already. I've prepared myself for the worst scenario and I've prayed a lot. I realize that there isn't anything I could have done to change the circumstances. It is hard to let go and realize you aren't in control. I think that has been the hardest thing I've had to deal with in our past losses. You always think that you can fix whatever is wrong. Of course I am hoping and praying like crazy that this pregnancy is the one and that we will have a healthy and happy baby at the end of this. I have been extremely nauseous so I'm hoping that is a good sign. I also hiccuped a lot when I was pregnant with Luke and I'm also having more hiccups this pregnancy. I know, I know, I'm really reaching here, but anything that could be a positive I'm definitely reaching for. Well, tomorrow is the day. Hopefully I will have great news to share with everyone tomorrow and I will be able to share this blog. So far it has been an outlet for me to write my feelings and keep a journal. Love, Meredith